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Off we go, into the wide, blue yonder!

After a quick, illness-be-damned decision Tuesday morning, I left Kanchan and the comforts of her home to board a plane for the extraordinarily bumpy thirty minute ride to Pokhara, where I’ll spend the duration of my summer. Pokhara is west of Kathmandu and Nepal’s second biggest city, as well as one of the major departure points for all manner of long distance trekking during the peak tourist season, September through December. As such, Pokhara has become fairly developed, and has many resources of the level you would expect to find in a major city of a less-developed country.

Pokhara is situated south and southeast of the Annapurna mountains (which are a major segment of Nepal’s famous Himalayas), and on clear days the mountains appear in the sky as if by magic, higher and more crisply beautiful than anything you could have imagined, were you to try and picture how they would look on the many cloudy and hazy days that dominate the off-season. I will be based out of Pokhara in part because it is a good access point from which to do research in the western half of Nepal, but largely because it is the location of Ban (Forest, in Nepali) Campus, or the Institute of Forestry. The IOF has bachelor’s, master’s, and Ph.D. level programs in forestry, and is truly spiritual kin of FES – a relationship that, in my only-occasionally-humble opinion, should be formalized. I’ll return to IOF in a future post, but wanted to at least introduce this amazing place that has become, for me, a temporary home.

On this morning, however, my only other option for getting to Pokhara was a seven-hour, stop-ridden, dusty, bouncy, and uncomfortable bus ride from Kathmandu that some might generously call “the scenic route,” but which is in fact along a winding road that curves through the hills of Nepal, dramatically opening up the west despite being marked along its face by the potholes and pockets of rubble that one anticipates along such a well-used road, in a country with the kind of sweeping hillsides and copious rain that will effortlessly sweep the roadway’s foundation and little bits of the road itself right downhill. I expect to take this local bus along that road at some point in the future (because I love an adventure), but with my two overweight bags, overstuffed school backpack, camera case, topo map tube, and lingering bits of illness, all I was interested in on Tuesday morning was efficiency. And the Buddha Air (say it with me: Boodt–ahhh Ayre) rock skipper is nothing if not a modicum of simple efficiency.

The itty-bitty plane takes off from the domestic part of the Kathmandu airport, a slight, orangey-brick building that has “I was built in the seventies” written all over it, both for its antique Nepali decor, with thick, swirling devanagari script written over doorways, gold and deep red paint just beginning to chip off the walls in the main building, and for the seventies-style office building floor, the kind of fake amalgamated rock pattern that is easy to sweep, and hard to scuff. The information counters, money-changers’ booths, and other services are set up in a way which calls to mind the little storefronts found throughout Nepal, where one long building, garage-style in construction, is set up with an open face to the street and the warm Nepali air, long overhanging roofs of corrugated iron leaning out into the street, catching the monsoonal rains that will soon thunder down and then pour off, all guarded by garage-style doors which are pulled down and locked with a modest padlock. The interior counters lock with padlocks all the same, and behind them sit various Nepali workers, a little bored, sometimes intrigued by their foreign guests, and very willing, should you accidentally overpay, to keep the change.

On this trip I am in the domestic terminal, however, which has less of a passe international air about it and more of the comfortable grunginess of real Nepal. At the door I am stopped (carrying all three bags, and struggling mightily) to have my flight ticket checked, before putting my items into the X-ray machine. There are no bins – everything, laptop included, rattles along on the conveyor and bounces down the other side, one on top of the other. The guard there, if asked whether film will be able to go through safely, will nod in the way of one who perhaps speaks your language but may not, in that moment, wish to extend the requisite effort to do so, and then you are in the terminal. The terminal itself is one long room with booths modeled after those of vendors at a carnival, flanked in the spaces in between by large, old school scales on which one’s bags are weighed, with a great big meter on the top and a hand that swivels around like that of a clock, to indicate the weight. I feel an uncanny love for these scales, for reasons I can’t enumerate or understand. I find I always want to climb aboard and wait them out as the little hand swings furiously around and then settles on my weight (which is certainly more than is allowable for a checked bag).

I was concerned on this trip that I would be charged about $20 in overweight bag fees, as Kanchan and I had called to inquire about weight limits from her house, and knew the per kilo charge for weight excess, as well as how far over my massive bags were. But it has been my experience on this trip (both in the US and in Nepal) that being a tall, blue-eyed woman with an open face (which in other contexts gets me into bad situations – as in, let’s be best friends for the next ten hours of this flight! And I’ll tell you alllllll about my life!!) often helps more than it hurts, and I have learned over the years that a very genuine sounding, “Hello, how are you today?” will relax most airport staff into letting you (and your extra six kilos of weight) slip by, unnoticed. This special treatment continued in the domestic terminal, although perhaps more because it looked like my baggage might legitimately explode and necessitate a serious repacking job by airport staff if opened.

But really, let’s be honest – it should have been opened, and rifled through. TSA checked both my bags on the way out of the country, according to the little slips of paper which fluttered to the floor when I opened them at Kanchan’s, and this is a good thing. My baggage should have looked just like a bomb, on the scanner – all my electronic devices’ wires were in one small bag and thus overlapping on an X-ray image; I had a dense, thick pile of lawn-style flags, complete with metal wires to stick them into the ground; I have two cameras, a GPS unit, and a microphone all in one bag; and I had trekking poles duct-taped onto the side, for goodness sake. I radiated security alerts. But no one checked me in the domestic terminal, and I happily handed over my ungainly bags, breathed a sigh of relief at avoiding the “hefty” $19 fee, and cruised through to the waiting area.

Making my way through security was simple enough – men and women are separated, and you step behind a curtain to a waiting, very bored young policewoman, who very thoroughly runs her hands along your breasts and between your legs, in case you, as a woman, thought that the Nepali sense of propriety would prevent security from searching you there, and allow you to transport unnamed contraband across the country. When nothing more interesting than a bra strap was detected I was allowed to continue to the waiting area, and then to the little shuttle bus to the even littler plane.

On the shuttle on this trip I noticed that one of the youngish Nepali guys my age was perspiring heavily and coughing a lot, even though it wasn’t that warm out. Newly Swine-flu-averse, I made a mental note to avoid sitting next to him at all costs, and instead plopped myself into the first seat in the plane when I saw that the only others left in the slender 25-seater were the three across the back, bus-style. This plane has one seat on each side of an extremely narrow aisle, and the single stewardess (who is generally younger than I am and always female) walks through the plane shortly after take-off and gives out newspapers and little wads cotton to stuff your ears in case you want to deaden the sound of the engine. It’s a modest affair, very efficient, and hard to turn down, when it means saving six and a half hours worth of travel time.

But of course a moment after I’d sat down, relieved to avoid the concerning cougher, the flight attendant asked me very politely to “please get out of her seat,” and where did I find myself but in a human sandwich between Swine Flu dai (older brother in Nepali) and his buddy, looking straight down the central aisle, into the cockpit, over the control panel, and right out into the clouds. Alas, alas!

On any other flight, this vantage point would have been immensely cool. I am a huge fan of flying and flight, and am normally the woman who leans forward with eager anticipation, eyes wide, upon take-off, never ceasing to marvel at the moment when the back wheels leave the tarmac, and the plane lifts up, and soars, rather than falling to the earth like every bit of logic I can employ would imply. I even, sometime in college, decided that if I had to have an ultimate fall-back plan, a plan for if everything else I ever wanted for myself failed, I would be a stewardess. Not a pilot (it takes too long and too much money to get all the requisite flying hours under one’s belt) but a stewardess. Over the years I’ve flown in a lot of small craft, both because of my predisposition towards soaring through the sky, and because of a combination of experiences sky-diving, seeing the Nazca Lines in Peru, and my friendship with Eric, from high school, who got his pilot’s license over the span of time when we both lived in DC and regularly hung out. If I became a flight attendant, I figured, I could fly all over the world for free, meet all different kinds of people, and never stop “taking off.”

But given that my last Buddha Air flight, when I traveled to Nepal in March, was the first one of my life that left me pining for a landing – and keeping in mind that that flight had lasted a scant thirty minutes – I wasn’t quite into the view this time around. Very few things legitimately scare me in life (and the ones that do are generally unutterably banal, like cockroaches, or stinging and biting insects, and mice), but that last flight on BA left me contemplating crossing myself and saying a Hail Mary, just in case. On this flight I noticed with relief  that there was a Catholic Priest-cum-missionary on our plane, little white neck collar thingey and all, so let him do the Hail-Marying for us both as we took off, instead focusing on not looking into the clouds, which were completely opaque, while we flew in a rather small plane, that was probably quite ancient and recycled from a larger fleet and a distant country, while in the country with the absolute tallest mountains in all of the world, which of course have a habit of hiding behind said opaque clouds. Because if I did look into those clouds, that might make me panic…even more. And so instead as we bounced, bopped, shimmied and shook our way through the clouds above Nepal I read the American celebrity gossip news in the newspaper, drank some soda, and repeatedly checked my watch. To see if we were landing yet.

And at long last the intercom chimed on, although to my horror I heard an automatic recording instructing us to “Prepare for Evacuation” as I watched the pilots’ forearms flash a little more rapidly across the control panels, cursing them every time it looked like they were gesticulating in ordinary conversation. Because pilot-conversation must involve actually holding onto the controls…right?

But as it turns out, ‘Prepare for Landing’ sounds a lot like ‘Prepare for Evacuation’ to my ears, as rather than bail (which I was actually beginning to mentally prepare myself to do – where do those mask thingeys pop down from?), we landed…hard. Very hard. The plane bounced up and down a bit as the tail end of the plane swung back and forth across the tarmac, in a way I’ve never experienced before, the edge of the runway getting closer first on this side of the plane, now on that one as I looked rapidly back and forth between the windows. All of the passengers braced themselve as even the most casual fliers dropped their newspapers to hold onto the arms of their seats, and I ran contingency plans for the different ways I would cope, should the plane continue right off the runway and into the adjacent rice fields.

But alas, or perhaps of course, in the end we were just fine. We landed safely and quickly, wiggly tail-end aside, and in short order and with a deep breath I was walking down the narrow steps, straight onto the runway, and towards the even smaller Pokhara airport. And it wasn’t until that moment, as I pulled my head up from the tarmac and looked around to see the city of Pokhara laid out to both sides, that I realized I had arrived. “Dear summer of 2009,” I thought, “I am finally here. Let’s do it.”

-M-

5 by 5

The last few posts were epic, so to toss some brain candy your way, here are five lists of five for you.

Five Things I Wish I Brought, But Didn’t
My plastic hotpot from college – which I repeatedly added and removed from my red soccer bag before leaving it in a bedroom in NJ;
My black soccer shorts – which would have been handy for at night after I’ve showered (I’m currently writing blog posts in a slip and a Yale crew t shirt – classsssy)
The Forestry Suppliers stuff I didn’t order in time – mostly a transect tape in metric (I have one in English) which is used for laying out research plots or sampling areas, a DBH tape for measuring the diameter of trees at breast height, or 1.37 meters from the ground, and dial calipers, which are used to measure the diameter of very small herbaceous plants, like the size of the stems of young seedlings
My tape recorder – I got lazy and didn’t try hard enough to find tapes to fit it
My super long computer cables for connecting with wires to the internet – I had them on the list, but overlooked them in the final moments of packing

Five Things I Am Already SO GLAD I Brought
Ciproflaxacin – Enough said.
My Forestry sweatshirt – It’s home in a hoodie.
The coffee Cristi gave me right before she left – that she brought back from Costa Rica. I haven’t found a way to grind it or opened the package yet, but I’m thinking of putting it in with my clothes so the smell will rub off – it’s that good, and that pungent.
My quick dry towels - I don’t care if you never go anywhere – go buy one. They will change your life. MSR makes them and I recently got a full-sized one to match the small backpacking one I have. I use ‘em in the airport, at Kanchan’s, wear the big one into the shower – they are brilliant. Hello, smart design. They make me want to invest in MSR. Actually, maybe I should…
My topographic maps of Nepal – I just used them while still rolled up to evict a three-inch-long cockroach from my room/building without having to touch him. Highly technical manipulation of a topo map. Go us.

Five Things I Wish I Could Send Home Right Now
(Luckily, this one is hard – I am actually learning to do this part well)
About 10 of the 20 lbs of books I brought – although I don’t want to give up any of the books themselves, just their weight.
My fleecey half zip shirt thing – apparently I don’t understand temperature ranges in Centigrade.
My Alaska sweatpants – ummmm, ditto.
My faux dress up jacket – huh? When exactly did I think I would wear this?
My Merrill shoes – I love them but Lordy do they stink!
(Ed. Note: I will use all of the above more than enough to justify their presence…but…still)

Five Things I Wish I’d Done Before I Left New Haven
Seen ‘Death of a Salesman’ at the Wharf Theater – which I’ve never been to
Gone to Sleeping Giant State Park - Like, ever.
Gone camping – I miss it.
Had a beach day – I had an emotional attachment to the idea, and now it’s just an emotional void. Helloooo, land-locked montane country. Goooooood-bye, beach.
Visited the Peabody – I can’t believe I haven’t been back since MODS. Pretty lame.

Five Things I Wish I Was Going to Have Time, Guts, or Money to Do in Nepal, But Know I Won’t

Bungie Jumping – (no guts)
Jomson Trek – (no time)
Teahouse Trek – (no time/money)
Annapurna Circuit Trek – (no time/money)
Everest Flight – (no money)

Five Cool Things I Just Might Do in Nepal
Become fluent in Nepali – god, let’s hope so!
Hang-glide across the Pokhara Valley – For sure.
Visit the Godanari Botanical Gardens – because I love Botanical Gardens
Learn to ride a motorcycle! – With a helmet, which I’m gonna have to buy, unfortunately.
My very own research!

-M-

I Am Swine Flu!

Many have probably heard it through the grapevine, by now, but I was terribly ill all day Sunday, while still in Kathmandu. I went to bed totally fine – and perhaps a little drunk – early Saturday night, but woke in the middle of evening in the most immense pain: my legs ached, my back ached, my head hurt, and I couldn’t relieve the pain all night long, no matter how I shifted or turned. I was drenched in sweat but too miserable to try to move anywhere or tell anyone, so when morning came and I wasn’t up at my usual super early 7am doing work (thank you, jet lag!), my friend Kanchan, with whom I’m staying, just thought her crazy American friend was finally chilling out and sleeping in.

I finally managed to clue her in at around noon, when we took my temperature and discovered it was at least a whopping 102 degrees. Now, a fever for me is usually around 99 (I can’t recall if I’ve ever had even a 100 degree fever – I don’t think so), so this was a pretty big deal. I was flabbergasted, but then again I was also flabbergasted that I’d easily just spent the last hour or so trying to divide 7 by 7 – I’m not kidding. As an indication of just how delirious I was, every time I tried to divide 7 by 7 the world ‘alphabet’ would pop into my head, in the same font as on the Alphabet cheerios box, and so I would get confused and try to divide the word alphabet by 7 (they’re not divisible, btw). I then tried to divide the number of letters in ‘alphabet’ by seven, and – yeah, I was riding the crazy train.

I spent a lot of the day trying to just look at and focus on the ceiling, to no avail, and couldn’t do anything to make myself feel better – I nursed a cracker for about an hour until giving up about an eighth of the way through; the only drink I finished was water; I couldn’t go to the bathroom because I got too dizzy, and showering or washing my hands were out of the question. The idea of how much effort it would take to even undress exhausted me. I knew I had a vial of Ciproflaxacin (prescribed by National Geographic in the days of yore – thanks dudes) kicking around my suitcase, but I was too dizzy and nauseous to find it, and my brain was too sluggish to remember where it was until late in the day. At one point I decided I must have Japanese encephalitis, one of the two ‘recommended’ vaccines I decided against getting, and became preoccupied that my brain was melting, and I would have permanent brain damage. I was OUT THERE.

Kanchan and her mom very kindly took on the role of nursemaid and applied cool washcloths all afternoon, which is the only thing for which I remember being glad, or from which I derived any relief. Together Kanchan and I managed to find the Ciproflaxacin, me by weakly calling confused directions across the room, she by good-naturedly searched through my baggage till she found the little vial labeled ‘for fever of unknown origin.” Well, yup, I’d say that about described it. I took one in the afternoon but my fever lingered, so late in the day Kanchan and her mom decided it was time for me to go to the clinic, and I shuffled perilously down four flights of steps to the car. The whole family jumped in (this made me grin with appreciation on the inside, although on the outside I was trying not to barf from all the potholes), and we went off to one of the local clinics.

At the clinic I was an anomaly, to be sure. Everyone stared at me but that was okay, because I was so sick I stared right back, with an “I’m looking at you but I’m not seeing anything at all” expression on my face, and wearing my brown sweatshirt with ‘YALE UNIVERSITY FORESTRY’ emblazoned across the front in the tropical heat, goosebumps periodically cruising up and down my forearms.

When the doctor eventually saw me he seemed to be taking his sweet time for someone I legitimately might puke on at any moment, but after a few minutes Kanchan shared that in Nepali he had said he was waiting for a face mask. To protect himself from me. This is about the moment where I looked at my hosts in horror and wondered if I’d just given them the cooties from hell.

The doctor and everyone else who had the information had realized, as I had, that a woman who has traveled internationally for two days, arriving within the last five days, having spent extended time in four airports and coming into casual contact with literally hundreds of people, would make a textbook case of Swine Flu, or H1N1, as they began to call it after the Egyptians began the world’s largest pig roast a few weeks ago.

The short version of what came next went something like this: doctor lists off my symptoms, including two I did not have, and I tell him so. He insists I have a sore throat because my voice is scratchy. Kanchan wonders to herself when he last heard my voice? No point though, because I’m being referred to the Center for Contagious Disease and Prevention, where I will be tested for H1N1. Everyone in the hallway of the clinic suddenly seems to know where I’m going and what for (remember the cootie bug? And Typhoid Mary? Well yeah, it’s me), and the girl on the phone of the hospital we’re headed towards (which is like a mini CDC, for the Americans out there) sounds excited. I may be about to become Nepal’s first confirmed case of swine flu.

I myself am not excited, although somewhere in the back of my deadened brain it occurs to me with amusement that between Swine Flu and Typhoid I’ll have pretty much the fiercest bragsheet of anyone I know, if I make it through okay. I’ll also probably win every game of two truths and a lie for the rest of history, but that’s not terribly reassuring, at the moment. It also occurs to me that I’ve read Nepal’s most up-to-date regulations regarding swine flu, thanks to an overzealous Google Alert, and I know it requires about a two week in-country quarantine period. As in, if I’m sick, I can’t just go home.

I don’t feel afraid for my own well-being, though. I do feel afraid of giving innocent Nepali folks without health insurance or access to health services the cootie bug, and possibly killing them for my negligence if I don’t get it checked out. I think a bit about how incredibly irresponsible it would be to even go back to Kanchan’s house, if I think I have Swine Flu, and how easy it would be for an American to make a lot of people sick very quickly in a less-developed country, and then survive it themselves because we have better access to healthcare. And I think a lot – a lot – about healthcare, and Obama, and how much it matters and how good of a precedent it is to set, in the world, to make healthcare universal. And so off to the CCDP we go.

When we get to the Contagious Disease hospital, called Teku, it is pretty freaking gross. I try very, very hard not to make unfair comparisons between countries with different resources, but holy god is it gross. The floors are dark and dirty pseudo-stone, the light bulbs are bare and in some places, cobwebbed, and I am led into a room (with finality – as in a, you’re-sleeping-over-because-you-have-swine-flu-whether-you-like-it-or-not type hospital room with hospital bed), and told to sit down on a bed that has obvious, obvious rat excrement encrusted on the blankets. On the blankets. On the bed. Rat excrement. Did I mention there was rat excrement? Did I mention excrement means shit in French? I proceed to become fixated on the poop, obsessed by it, concerned in the insanity of my fever that I both not touch it and also not pass out and fall into it, and in my crazy state check on it periodically to make sure it is really there, and also that it hasn’t moved. It is, and it hasn’t.

The doctor comes in and he is young, maybe even younger than me, and cute and very serious, wearing a face mask (everyone at the hospital had a face mask ready when I got there) and barking questions like he knows he might be about to be famous for “finding” the first swine flu case in Nepal and he doesn’t want to screw it up. I notoriously balk in the face of health care (why do they have to be so brusque? jerks), in part since I am inexperienced in it – I have been very lucky, and never gone to a hospital for anything other than volunteering and my siblings being born.

The doctor threatens me with quarantine as if to keep me in line, and I decide that sleeping on the rat poop would in fact be more than I could handle, at this point, and cut out the sass in my answers. I am also wearing a mask, which makes it hard to answer and is distracting – mine smelled like something unexpected and institutional – not flowers, though. Although I have committed to being serious and answering the questions to avoid a fate of old rat excrement, I still chuckle when he asks if I’m married. I think the question is bizarre (I’m so young!) and Doctor Serious thinks it is, in fact, very serious. Instead he takes my parents’ names and phone numbers, because someone must be responsible for me, right? In the middle of Dr. Serious’s monologue about how he’s going to ruin my Nepal trip his pants begin to ring, to the tune of “Jump on It.” I kid you not. Dr. Serious maintains his composure while I struggle not to laugh behind the mask, but when he turns his back I eye Kanchan and do the Cabbage Patch and then the Sprinkler to the rhythm of his cell phone tone, making his assistant’s eyebrows shoot up and into his hairline. How’s that for serious, eh?

When the good doctor finally fills me in, it is apparent that I do.not.have.swine.flu. The abject absence of a runny nose or sore throat (Beware! Beware!) seems to clear me of the plague, and it’s Influenza A Meredith he is now concerned about. And a much more docile creature, she is. At this point I become a little bit of the pissy, delirious foreigner, and tell him I’ve been vaccinated for it (I later check and it turns out I absolutely have not), and also belligerent because I already had the flu this year, and how many times do I really have to do this?

My claims fall on deaf ears, however, as the snot test and two throat cultures are on tap for me. I’m not going into the snot test – let’s just say they fish out snot with a long Q-tip and leave it at that, shall we? The throat culture is funny because Kanchan and her mother were plotting mutiny in the doctor’s absence, assuring me they will smuggle me out if Doctor Serious tries to quarantine me, which concerns me because I’ve given the doc my mother and father’s names, and I’m worried in my absence he’ll send the World Health Organization to my parents’ house, because he said he was contacting them. I have no doubt that, should the doctor have tried to quarantine me, a kidnap attempt would be staged successfully. For that, I love Nepal. And Kanchan. And her mother.

But back to the story: I’m feeling a little overly confident and smug that I’ll be smuggled out, now, so when Joe Throat Culture tries to do the tongue depressor thing I tell him in strident, incomprehensible American tones (and English language) that I have “a strong gag reflex.” And hoooooo, boy does he find out how true THAT is. At least I warned him.

Tests done and temperature taken (now a remarkable 102.4), we are left alone for fifteen minutes while the flu A test is processed. If my result is negative we are told, in no uncertain terms, that I will be staying the night. Or several nights, while Doctor Serious waits for the World Health Organization to call him back and trigger the ‘Jump on it’ song all over again. I can hardly wait, and Kanchan, her mother and I spend the time in the hospital room critiquing the dirtyness (soooo dirty. Preventably dirty, even with very little resources). I am eyeing the squat hole in the bathroom, and thinking about the fact that I am 99% certain that if I have to use that hole to go to the bathroom tonight when I’m so dizzy, I will fall in it and drown in my own excrement, never mind the rat’s, when all of a sudden I feel a wash of heat come over me. My shirt begins to actually drip with sweat (gross, I know), and my eyes focus in on the toilet hole as the first thing I’ve really looked at all day. Right there in Doctor Serious’ ward of no-fun, my fever breaks.

Five minutes later, Doctor Serious returns to tell us that my test has come back negative. I fist pump in victory (because I’ve won, right?) making Doctor Actually-Kind-of-Cute Without a Face Mask smile, whip my own face mask into the trash, and give one long, last look to the rat poop before heading out with Kanchan and her mom, making us a very relieved trio.

The rest is ridiculous. I went home and showered without a problem, and my fever (with the help of two prescriptions) began dropping that night. All of my symptoms were gone the next morning (24 hours later) except for the headache and the stomachache, and lack of appetite. That took another day.

In hindsight, more than anything, I’m glad I got it checked out, and thankful it happened when it did. Were I to have been in Pokhara when it happened I would just by the nature of things have had far less support, and in the field – I don’t really want to think about it. It would have been horrendous, or what might politely be called an “incredibly unique and unusual cultural experience.” I was lucky it struck when I was staying with Kanchan and her marvelous parents, and that they were willing and able to take care of me (and also to drive me to the clinic – there wasn’t a chance in hell that I was going to make it walking).

And there were benefits. I spent most of Monday not on a plane to Pokhara, as planned, but continuing to take it easy at Kanchan’s, periodically bursting out into “thank god!” or “I win!” or “I feel so good it’s amazing!” Being so sick, even if for a short time, really made me appreciate being well, and I have had several incredibly productive days since, as right now I thrive in just feeling okay. And in being very happy with that.

-M-